2 decades

I'm telling you this right now. i'm surviving.

its really hard still. to this day

20 days have passed. and it really feels like years. i still pass by m st. and want to stop by and see you. ambush you with hugs and kisses (xoxo)

but i stop myself... i'm happy.
it is getting better. the memory of you slowly fades. very slowly i wish it was gone.

=/ its not and that sucks

I can't stand the thought of you actually, it annoys me. it fills me with hatred. I wish you never existed. I wish i didn't know of that love at all.

Most of what i had is now gone. And i dont feel like there are any empty spaces. except one. i hope to fill it soon.

.....

Well onto current news.

my family is in a deficit of about 1000-2000 dollars. its really frightening to think my parents will lose the house. they said if that happens they will move somewhere, my sister has enough money to get her place which leaves me to be on the street. ha..

i am trying to help out the situation because there has been some shady shit going on. indeed. the person who is in charge of the money is overspending the money and using the savings too. its pretty out of control. i have currently became the house accountant/finance person. its really stressful. i am also my mothers (free) assistant. i do all the bitch work. it's really lame. i can't believe i could be the cause of a divorce too... apparently. and its not to say that i'm making this up because the person stating they might actually get a divorce blames it on me. BITCH. and i'm sorry to be using that word for this person but they deserve it right about now. and if i can't say it in front of anyone else... blogspot you the secret holder. KEEP IT SECRET...

i really hope shit gets better. right now i dont think its going to be okay.
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