Neutral feeling

My anthem right about now.. "Did it again" by shakira

I don't wanna feel anger and i don't wanna feel sad. I understand by his part, yet i cannot stand it from my perspective. The only place i can meet this feeling is halfway..cliche. So i say now, i have been neutralized.

He hurt me, I let myself. I'm the only one to blame.
"did it again, love
i got it all wrong
but it felt so right
i can't believe it

and all the mistakes
that went on for too long
wish there was a way
i could delete it

...

When it comes to men it's known
That I end up choosing wrong
'Cause I always trip and fall
The same old rock and repeat and go back"


I have decided what i'll do, action is the next step..to follow through.

I don't have a wall.. i don't make good walls.
But i have a brain and i have experience and i have learned in one way or another.

I'm fine

EZ

Intelligence

...is to keep ur heart inside your head

keeps you from making stupid decisions
and your skull keeps it from getting hurt.

Walls

I had been thinking about redoing them on account that i don't want to get hurt.
decided not to... mistake
They are in building mode.. thinking bout a skyscraper this time

EZ

So they argue and accuse

--&this is why i stay in my room. a place to think to escape. atleast from sight. If i close my eyes it'll get better(i've been promised) leave(i've been told) it's your fault(i've been accused) i'll live(i tell myself) =)

Miss my friend

miss the laughs

miss the inside jokes

miss lady gaga tributes

miss playing the piano

miss all the outings

... but if this is what she wants, so be it.

i'm sorry... i truly am. Although i don't take anything back. and for once a drink sounds nice...

It's like something new

As i thought it was...it was.
As it has been going...will continue.
I don't mind letting you go because that something was never there. Glad to be moving on and starting new although i lose more of people like u everyday.
But a good thing -> i keep the good ones

EZ-'10

---0-1-0-2/2-0-1-0---

Damn, so great! This is so fantastic-oh.
Leather and Jeans, Garage glamorous, not sure what that means..
but this photo of us it don't have a price
ready for those flashing lights
cuz you know that baby I...

i really like you.

I really didn't expect anything to go down, it went by so fast, too fast for me to grasp it. too fast for me to understand what was going on. but i'm movin on.

It feels so right, i feel so happy so.. ugh happy. I don't think I can even find another word to describe it at the moment.. i don't feel good i feel great.

a few minor details... sadness falls over on account to a few losses because of this gain. but it's ok... i will survive. i know i will.

Imprinting might sound funny.. but i think i just did. Hopefully this is what i think cuz that is what i feel. i could be done... dunzo hahaha

ok i don't make sense, i'll just write when i do.

KRIS P TREAT <3

EZ-maniac