Spring comes along...

You see, it is not that i don't want to write i just haven't.. and i apologize.

I am at a loss for words when it came to writing in here and i didn't exactly know what to say... and right now i believe i'm about to rant off into another dimension.

He left.
I stayed.
She came.
I smiled.
We haven't become..but there is hope.

I don't want to rush into anything like i always do, whether it is into jobs into relationships into friendships.. Even into a confinement of myself.
I'm tired of running because i've made a mistake... exclude home-- i need to get out of here. I want to confront whatever it is that has burdened me for so long.. but take it a step at a time. I don't want to make plans, because things never go according to plans... =( sad but true

My feelings? Well for the most part i'm happy. Of course there are so many things that have angered me and that will continue to but I don't really need anyone or anything. She talks to me now and that makes me really happy, and she's telling me the things i've always wanted to know. He left me, for immaturity, and that makes me happy cuz i don't want them both. She i will always love, but don't want a thing but to move on. too many years of suffering and laughs and arguments and drama... still to this day. I'm done. That girl... she will always be a part of me and always be my other half, but she must choose her priorities and catch her mistakes before i do. [multiple ppl i have spoken about bare with me] I want to escape my present life, into the one that approaches, much quicker than time can go. It certainly needs to be kicked into turbo or something.

I have so much going on it's difficult for me to sum it into a sentence... always is.

emotions continue to fluctuate... but i know for a fact that i am more in love with:
myself
my piano
dancing
singing =/
laughing-especially with you ooh [like williams ice cream funny]
and living

than i ever have been before... =)

Hope life can continue on a good journey-- oh 2010 u and ur surprises

EZ-goes