Run with Me

Sitting in this empty cubicle, thinking about how wonderous everything is right now. It has been a minute. [but really months]

I'm a little overwhelmed by all of the things that have happened. I'm a little more ready than I have ever been. So again I say, I sit here in this empty cubicle, thinking about how wonderous everything is right now.

I'm now working as a temp for Blue Shield of California [65+ dept] enjoying what i do, or should i say DONT do. Everyone here is very polite and i'm comfortable. What happened to IPC? I was discharged. Spent months without a job, without a life. I thank Jessica everyday for using all her strength and effort to hold me up and not let me fall. She really took it upon herself to take care of me, regardless of what i did... AGAIN. Well what WE did this time. It wasn't just me this time around, on the contrary more her... but i never retracted what i said. I actually just continued with it. Not sure where I was again. I lose myself quite a bit I have noticed. But she stuck by me yet again and pushed me through. We are planning to move out really soon...

Actually... sooner than ever.

Never thought that this day would come. Thought I would never get to this point but it is almost here. And I know, I know... I have said it multiple times before, but I believe this time, it is for real. Not just a perhaps, a for sure. And I think i'm only saying this because the date has gotten closer. Yes 2-3 months. We are already saving, planning, buying, and looking. I'm more than delighted.

News about Sasha [nickname], can you say Divorce? Well start saying it. Name change and all. Things didn't seem to work out for the couple. Sad to see it crumble... but I suppose it's hard to continue when you aren't happy.. and trust sort of floats out the window without being seen.
Two nights ago I drove over to San Diego [where they received a new home] to pick up half of her things. She jammed packed them into my clown car [chevy aveo] and i sped away... not looking back but looking forward. I'm moving into my old room, the office, Chavita's room. I won't have my own space anymore, I won't have my privacy, I won't be able to lock doors, I won't be able to do much. I still haven't put any of my belongings in that room, and already... nothing fits. It is jammed packed in there with all of Chita's stuff. My mother and I went to Ikea and bought a closet... so that i can use. It looks pretty awesome... but its still really small compared to what I used to have. I definitely need this move.

Since reading this whole blog today, I suppose I can update you on my ex feelings, per say. Yeah... No... I dont mourn over any of it. I don't think of her as often as I used to, actually... almost not at all. I do speak with her once in a blue moon.. want specifics? Like once every two months or so. Just to see how things are going. I'm just so in love with Jessica that it isn't even something I have time to think about. She was a cool friend still is, but I dont try to make it a habit to speak with her. I have a good group of friends/family I can rely on, although sometimes its nice to have a chat with someone who probably knows alot more than others.
On this subject, Cookie and I are doing better than ever. I mean I don't talk with her often, but I will tell you this... It isn't awkward anymore. And that was the goal. My birthday is coming and my sisters are planning something for Carlos and I. I hope to get closer to all of them considering i'm finally going to be 21!! Speaking of birthdays..

Yesterday was Jessica's birthday. I wish we would have done something more than what we did... but it's okay ;D
Ooh she got a tv and I fell to the floor! hahaha.. well we both did, it was like a gift for both of us... seriously. God I love that girl!!

Well, this was a wonderful update... I hope you enjoyed... whoever you are.

-Amber